The New Life

Well enough with being vague and mysterious. Not much of a point when I am pretty much talking to myself anyways. There have been many new and interesting developments in my life as of late.

First, I am getting married. To be honest with you, my life and been pretty plain and uneventful to this point and I welcome the change it will bring. I have the odd fun here and there but mostly it feels like just putting in time. Now I'll be out in the world building my own life with the woman I love. Many challenges lay ahead and I have no doubt in our strength as people, or as a couple, to face any and all of them.

Second is a more recent development. Up until a week ago, the plan was that she was to move here to Canada. Now due to family priorities, as well as some financial incentives, it may be me who is headed to live over the sea. My immediate thought is that this is great, that it will be fun and provide a great chance for personal growth. But not all of me agrees with this. While I am not overly family-centric, I do have a pretty close family. I believe deep down, despite what my outward thoughts would be, that this will not be so easy. I really do want to move but my girlfriend can sense this hesitation and in it sees doubt, even when that is not really the case.

I have no doubt that all will work out, and that I will be off to Europe in as little as seven months. But being so far apart in the meantime is not an easy road. I take heart that it will continue to build in me the character I will need in the years ahead when I have a family and real decisions to make.

Randomness

I thought is was about time to rant for the sake of ranting. That and I am a little bored with work this morning.

Motivation is something that has been on my mind, or not on my mind depending on how you look at it. I am, by all standards, a fairly laid-back individual. While this is great at times, I find I have serious problems with self-motivation. While I can muster some motivation for exciting new ideas and challenges, keeping that motivation is rather difficult.

While I do appreciate being me, if there is one thing I could instantly change about myself it would be that. I say instantly because changing it is possible otherwise, I even know how to do it. It's just a difficult process that requires some motivation itself...

Take for example my writing skill. I would love to write a book but I defintely don't have the ambition and motivation to take on such a project myself. That's also a self-defeating attitude and doesn't help... If I think I am going to fail than I obviously am. There are many other things that I am good at and I believe I have the capacity to excel at almost anything if I could learn the ability to motivate myself efficiently.

That should be my New Year's Resolution, a challenge of grand scale that would encompass any smaller resolutions which would be doomed to fail without motivation to drive them.

A New Year

Another new year...

The symbolism escapes no one and has become an ingrained ritual in our culture. It is a time for fresh starts and new beginnings, often to wash away or undo the mistakes of the past, or start upon the path to a dream.

I started with certainty on a new path this year, though it was only co-incidence that it happened at this time of the year. It should be a long path, and by the very nature of it I hope that it is. Though it is defintely not an easy path as I have already seen and it promises to get no easier in the near future.

If anything it will continue to be a great life experience.