Randomness

I thought is was about time to rant for the sake of ranting. That and I am a little bored with work this morning.

Motivation is something that has been on my mind, or not on my mind depending on how you look at it. I am, by all standards, a fairly laid-back individual. While this is great at times, I find I have serious problems with self-motivation. While I can muster some motivation for exciting new ideas and challenges, keeping that motivation is rather difficult.

While I do appreciate being me, if there is one thing I could instantly change about myself it would be that. I say instantly because changing it is possible otherwise, I even know how to do it. It's just a difficult process that requires some motivation itself...

Take for example my writing skill. I would love to write a book but I defintely don't have the ambition and motivation to take on such a project myself. That's also a self-defeating attitude and doesn't help... If I think I am going to fail than I obviously am. There are many other things that I am good at and I believe I have the capacity to excel at almost anything if I could learn the ability to motivate myself efficiently.

That should be my New Year's Resolution, a challenge of grand scale that would encompass any smaller resolutions which would be doomed to fail without motivation to drive them.