Intricacies of Life

Here I am again. And if I am here you know it's for a reason, not always good. This place being my not-so-private rant space to sort out what the hell I am thinking sometimes.

Everything is going great. So great that I couldn't possibly hope for anything better. All our plans are working out exactly as we had hoped and everything is on track for me to be in Switzerland in a little over two months. The whole process of moving there is relatively simple and we have all the information on what we need to do. Amazing!

Except there is something bothering me and I have no idea what it is. Best I can guess up to this point is that it is a combination of many factors but that's what I am here to find out for sure. I am not unsure about the whole idea. I am fully committed to building a new life there and all the challenges associated with that. However, there is a certain amount of anxiety assoicated with any such situation. It's not exactly easy to leave a place you've lived for twenty-three years for a place where you know relatively little. I barely even speak the language as of this point.

I am beginning to hate my job more and more everyday. I have six months to live in Switzerland before I can legally get a job after I am married, basically six months holidays. You would think that knowing you're leaving in two months for six months vacation would make it easier but in fact it makes it harder, knowing that you're that close to freedom! Not really a big deal overall, my job isn't that hard, just crappy.

Being apart from the person you love for months at a time isn't easy either. It was never a normal relationship from the start, but this part never gets easier. It is great knowing that we'll never have to do that again though.l

I still don't know what the problem is. I don't think there really is a problem. I just miss my babe and can't wait to be with her again to start the rest of our lives together.